About a week ago the Lord showed me a vision of my old dirty clothes in a heap on the ground. Then He spoke to me and said, “everything will be used to reveal an abundance”. A few days after that I understood what He was talking about. I had an attack the other night and those who were on the DFTD Facebook page saw my urgent plea for prayers of protection.
Thank you for your prayers, they were a lifeline of help. Now I would like to explain what happened. I was contacted by someone who I used to see when I was stuck in sin and doing many shameful things. We were dating and I had given him several nude photos. I am literally so sick to even share this with you, but it is what I am sensing to do.
This person said that he was going to punish me for what I put him through and that he was going to send those shameful pictures of my past mistakes to everyone on my Facebook page. I cannot even express the terror that I felt…and the shame. I was weeping and desperate for God to protect me. I didn’t know what to do so I pleaded for prayers on the FB page.
I could barely sleep all night and when I did, the Lord gave me a beautiful dream. He showed me that He bought me a dress in my favorite color and He said that is was only $3.54 for a “moving sale”. Then He led me to read Isaiah 54 again and His Spirit calmed my nerves when I read about remembering the shame no more.
The next morning the Lord downloaded an idea for me to use to shut the mouth of the lion that was attacking. I spoke exactly what the Lord laid upon my heart and the fire was instantly put out. Not only was the fire put out, but this man became terrified of the punishment that could come by hurting a child of God.
For many days after that, I prayed a lot and I confessed that I was clean and forgiven..as the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus. When I look at the things that I have done and all of my mistakes, I sometimes just cry and tell God that there is not a soul on this earth who could love me and not judge me. His love brings me to my knees and I am so thankful that He understands and always has a plan to help us escape.
On a side note, in only 5 days my website annual dues expire and I don’t know what God is going to do. The fees are a lot and if I am unable to attain what I need, then I will have to find a way to publish the blogs on only Facebook and not through the emails. But I am not ready to give up hope yet, there is still time for a miracle~
Thank you for grace and gentle love as I expose this difficult thing to you. I am no longer a hostage of shame, but I am resting in the protective love of Jesus. Everything will become a blessing and even the past mistakes will be used to reveal an abundance. God blessings to you and yours.
Love and blessings,
To send a gift of support:
It is sown in dishonor, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in strength ~
1 Corinthians 15:43